Doug Ramspeck
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poetry collection,
Black Tupelo Country, was selected for the 2007 John Ciardi Prize for Poetry and is published by BkMk Press (University
of Missouri-Kansas City). His chapbook, Where We Come From, is published by March Street Press. His poems have appeared
in journals that include West Branch, Rattle, Confrontation Magazine, Connecticut Review, Nimrod, Hunger Mountain, and
Hayden’s Ferry. He directs the Writing Center and teaches creative writing and composition at The Ohio State
University at Lima. Three
Love Problems I Beatrice, as usual, was
pissed. Dante bought a bottle the night before then played drinking games with himself in the motel room while watching
HBO. Finally, mercifully, he passed out but then awoke to tell her he’d dreamed that she, his dear sweet benedetta
Beatrice, was sleeping in the Lord’s arms, sleeping while dressed only in a crimson cloth, and when she came awake
she was holding in her hands his flaming heart, and she ate of it. The dream was supposed to be romantic, but it occurred
to her right then she’d had enough. She was tired of playing the Cosmic Good Girl whose very presence altered
the sun and moon and stars. She longed to kick his sorry hung-over ass into the deep end of the pool then drown him
like a stupid, rabid dog. II Petrarch is the day manager
at the Motel 6. Laura is a maid. She has been watching Petrarch watch her for many months, though he will not
speak to her unless he is looking at his shoes. And once when she was in his office emptying his waste basket, she saw
a part of a poem he was composing: And blessed be the first
sweet agony I felt when I found myself
bound to Love, the bows and arrows that
have pierced me, the wounds that reach the
bottom of my heart. All the maids laugh at him,
of course. And just that morning when their hands brushed while they were
both reaching for the employee’s coffee pot, he raced toward his office as though he’d been infected by the plague. III On the second floor in a
room across from the ice machine, Keats and Fanny are eating Cheerios from Styrofoam bowls. A moment earlier Fanny made
the most innocent of remarks that the selling date on the small carton of milk had expired, and Keats began mumbling about
how all of us have expiration dates. It was one of his usual foul, black moods. Snap out of it!
she wanted to tell him as milk drooled in a desultory fashion down his chin. He kept saying he had accomplished nothing
in his life that meant his name would be writ in anything but water. It was all so lame. She had been thinking
for some time now that he ought to be on Zoloft or Prozac or Wellbutrin, but mostly what he needed, she concluded—like
eve ry man—was a swift boot upside his head. The Good Sick They say it is the consecrated
bruise, the forgotten smell of earth’s
sulfur, the prolific weeds burgeoning out of the needle into your
vein; but sometimes as the black
tar is congealing and purifying
your blood into the heroin swamp, as
the Great Rush transforms your limbs to
stone and your spirit into ether, as though the body is too
weak for some earthly pleasures, the corporeal contents of
your belly offers itself as sacred
spew into the world, sometimes consecrating your
shirt or splattering its myrrh
and incense at your feet. So this morning when I find some chicken wings in a
dumpster near De Soto Park and carry
them with me to a bench so I can watch
the eternal migration of the Mississippi
toward=2 0the sea, and then, a short while
later, am down on my knees and depositing
the contents of my stomach into the grass,
each racking spasm like
the first convulsions of life bubbling upward
from the primal stew, and then the joggers going
past make a wide respectful berth
around this glistening stain, and
the Memphis sunlight shimmers in this liquid
gift brought forth from the depths of
who I am, I cannot help but feel emptied of a fever, as thin and
pure as though my bones have been scraped
and bleached a perfect white, as though
the bodily self has stripped itself at last
of the cloak of flesh, and here I am,
in this single instant, as ethereal and ancient
as any river. Mountain Tomb Are the dead
like this? We walked at dusk along the mountain
ridge, watching the belted kingfisher
scudding like a prayer above the stream.
The rocks were brown beneath the surface,
though earlier we had stood
beside the furry white catkins of the pussy
willow, had watched the river otter
dashing pell-mell to its den. We were shape
without form, the water thrush
whistling its staccato verdict.
The earth spun for us like a would-be
lover desperate to impress. There had been
a sweetness overnight to the burning wood inside our
cabin, but now we climbed into the lupine
and the fireweed. We pretended love ascended
with us to the heights. At twilight the
valley below turned dark as memory,
and a mist dipped like a bruised
cloud along the twisting stream. Then the moon
came out, jaundiced, one-eyed, glowing
down upon the lofty mountain
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