Al Zolynas
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was born in Austria of Lithuanian parents in 1945, and since then has moved twenty-eight
times. After growing up in The
New Physics --for Fritjof Capra And so, the closer he looks at things, the farther away they seem. At dinner, after a hard day at the universe, he finds himself slipping through his food. His own hands wave at him from beyond a mountain of peas. Stars and planets dance with molecules on his fingertips. After a hard day with the universe, he tumbles through himself, flies through the dream galaxies of his own heart. In the very presence of his family he feels he is descending through an infinite series of Chinese boxes. This morning, when he entered the little broom-closet of the electron looking for quarks and neutrinos, it opened into an immense hall, the hall into a plain - the Steppes of Mother Russia! He could see men hauling barges up the river, chanting faintly for their daily bread.
It's not that he longs for the old Newtonian Days, although something of plain matter and simple gravity might be reassuring, something of the good old equal-but-opposite forces. And it's not that he hasn't
learned to balance comfortably on the see-saw of paradox. It's what he
sees in the eyes of his children --the infinite black holes, the ransomed light at the center. --From The New Physics, Wesleyan U Press, 1979. Considering the Accordion The idea of it is distasteful at best. Awkward box of wind, diminutive, misplaced piano on one side, raised Braille
buttons on the other. The bellows, like some parody of breathing,
like some medical apparatus from a Victorian sick-ward. A grotesque poem in three dimensions, a rococo thing-a-me-bob. I once strapped an accordion on my chest and right away I had to lean back on my heels, my chin
in the air, my back arched like a bullfighter or flamenco dancer. I became an unheard of contradiction: a gypsy in graduate school. Ah, but for all that, we find evidence of the soul in the most unlikely places. Once in a Czech restaurant in Long Beach, an ancient accordionist came to
our table and played the old favorites:
"Lady of Spain," " The Saber Dance," "Dark Eyes," and through all the clichés his spirit sang clearly. It
seemed like the accordion floated in air, and he swayed weightlessly
behind it, eyes closed, back in floated--the whole restaurant: the patrons, the knives and forks, the wine, the sacrificed fish on plates. Everything was pure and eternal, fragilely suspended like a stained-glass
window in the one remaining wall of a bombed out church. --From Under
Ideal Conditions, Laterthanever Press, Trying to
Save an Insect Taking out the trash, I almost step on him. Black beetle struggling
along. Dragging himself across the pitted cement path. I put my sack down. He seems to be wearing some kind of a
gray sweater knitted out of miniature wool. Suddenly, he flips over on his back. I see five of his six legs tangled up in spiderweb.
Struggling to free himself, he waves them about awkwardly like a baby in a crib trapped among knotted skeins of wool. I go inside, get my reading glasses, my tiniest pair of scissors, the ones I use to trim nose hair. Carefully, I cut as much of the web away from his legs as I can, though they're still encased in miniature
gray leggings and socks. The clotted web on his back I can't free without risking damage to his carapaced wing protectors. I have no choice but to leave him with his little sweater on. At least he can crawl again, which he now does in a straight line, full of purpose, as it seems to me,
across the path with not even a backward glance and into the shadows of the ground cover. Staying
Put For years, it was our job to move on. Now our job, it seems, is to stay put. Before, novelty and adventure were our daring friends, sparkling, many-faceted. Now, we are accompanied by a gentleman, a little dour in his gray suit, who refuses excitement, nostalgia, the lure of romance, who tugs at his neatly creased slacks, adjusts the mauve rag sinking in his breast pocket and sits down to wait— no, to attend. There's
What You Do and then there’s what you feel while you do it and then there’re the words that come later to describe, recreate, narrate it— all at a third remove from the doing. And then there’s poetry, a doing in words, the act of writing and a pointing back to the ultimate and absolute the relativity of words their limited and limiting circumscriptions, their stalactites of feeling, their penumbras of meaning, the deep cave of their origins. |
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