George Kalamaras
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Is the author of six books of poetry, four of which are full-length, Gold Carp Jack Fruit Mirrors (The Bitter Oleander Press, forthcoming), Even
the Java Sparrows Call Your Hair (Quale Press, 2004), Borders My Bent Toward
(Pavement Saw Press, 2003), and The Theory and Function of Mangoes (Four Way Books,
2000), which won the Four Way Books Intro Series, chosen by Michael Burkard. His poems
and prose poems have appeared in Best American Poetry 1997, American Letters & Commentary, Colorado Review, Denver Quarterly, New American Writing, New Letters,
TriQuarterly, No Boundaries: 24 American Prose Poets, Sentence, Untitled,
and many others. He is the recipient of Creative Writing Fellowships from the National Endowment for the Arts (1993) and the
Indiana Arts Commission (2001).
Vasko Popa and the Myth of
the Deadpan Myth Yes, he painted the blackbird, breathed the blackbird green. He could read The
act of family, he once said, is a critical fact.
The confining function of Andre Breton, my funny bone. Here, tear off
the Slavic Section from the library of your left big toe and fit it snugly into Cornell’s tiniest box. It hurt to hear such words. Made us squint from the saddle burr, the donkey bray, the kerosene bit.
Toe blister as it appeared on our frenum. But here was Vasko Popa living
among us in Once when we met at the butcher’s
many years before, he told me, The poem is an act of sleep apnea or acne. Here, prop your head on this pillow; eat this spleen. And when I refused, he hid my face from
the world with a soft black cloth, asking me to translate the eye of the She-Wolf he’d recently carved with a spoon. Into what?
I’d wondered. Why, wherefore, and for whom?
It sounded like the previous edition of his life—salt of the wounded wolf, blackbird green, St. Sava’s
salve. I was ready to rewrite all his good acts into bad, the bad ones into something
even worse. The details of his dream are the only ones
I could possibly live with certainty. Translation involves choice, selection,
accessibility, cultural context, blood sacrifice, and the intestinal granting of a worm.
Yes, and the idea that someone knew him, knows him, could cut—even—a
hole in the soft black cloth and pass chicken feet through it into a mouth open or clothed, chicken feet that once scratched
some corner of screen door or other in his sleep with intelligent, albeit nervous,
reprise. A
Barbarian from the Okay, so he
resembled a rat from the Not fire in the groin, but missteps. Hesitations. Spelling’s punch-gut. Burnt patches of verve. This, and the anthologies of mescaline he scoured to reach the imitations of his brain. Gains, he said, and loss. He found himself in the Long stretchers
of minutes passed as if from a field ambulance, as if from an ear. As if by mistake. The stutter-blood of doves vibrated an instant on the hummingbird ledge. But Henri Michaux was no mistake. Darkness moves, he had said slantwise through the throat of a mirror that looked into him while looking through a sudden storm. Sure, hearing such things upset us, at first, but what edge of counting does not internally bleed? We weren’t washing any longer in soapy water, so after sex we separated politely, replaced our limbs
with a strange knack of living. We went about our cigarettes, our industry and
reason, even an exertion of family. And we exchanged kisses with strangers as we might duplicate a phone number in ink upon the wrist. Again, the rat. Again, its protracted scratch to release the
sea that seemed, now, so far from his sand. He stood on the bridge of this influence
or other, over this dune ocean or that, munching scraps of an almost Infinite. To “get it right” means the cuts on the body should heal? To
increase the satellites of cellulose in the brain might, understandably, bring pain yet appease release? And so, partly. And so liminal space in the right ear, in the
anthologies of eyes all looking back into him as if he himself. And so a word
fractured at a victorious rate of exchange—an exorbitant parade of grace-my-soul-with-this
and violent-my-little-shiver-of-flesh-with-that—might not ever bleed clean
the blowed and sandy flea. Dear mangy dog, Henri had inscribed one night on the bottom of a house shoe, natural gas
might sicken the plants, but remove the duct tape from the soul and what have we then? Yes, we found this kind of talk upsetting. We politely and refused. We exchanged cigarettes as we might pineal glands.
And still, the shearing and the seam. Please, if you find him two years in Garaband, locate his left hip in sleep sockets in the Is Autoeroticism a Fierce Form of Incest? It is written in the
Kama Sutra to love but not to attach oneself to the loving. It is written in The Bone Sutras that inscribed bone cannot be x rayed nor de- flead. You say your name
is You say you are honest,
that you have never once eaten black crusts of birds. When a clay pot is
formed between two hands, something spun has removed parts of itself
just in the turning. I look north, then
east, to disintegrate the partiality of my stare. No, I would not keep
the family history from being discussed tree to tree. I value the opinions
of oaks and would like to eavesdrop on what sycamore wind they might
interrogate. If it came to teaching
worms the ways of spiritual love-making, I would suspect they
might show us how to curl into our pleasure-seeking selves. So much is lost on
a January night as my right hand massages my cock and balls and imagines
you undressing my words with the tough—almost sisterly—circumstance
of our tongue. What the Aghoris
Taught It’s hard to say directly, especially after fretful
secretions. I would never hurt a single living thing. That’s one reason I cramp when I remember killing
the ant when I was six. Was it that I’d named it Georgie, or was it my own parakeet need? Think of all the choices in a slight green rain. Say you were what I saw when I could not say appanage. Carrying a lost migration on our animal backs, we helped a bird give
birth to a galaxy. The black seeds of sunflowers were equally expressive when it came to profiling a weeping. The sweetness of some sort of center demands a tremulous gratitude. If I held a Vedic chant and meditated only in cremation grounds, would
you mark my forehead with ash? Drink from a skull and taste bee entrail soot swallowed by a Take my hand and imagine your fear.
I somehow didn’t get hurt. The Practice of Austerities As to the result of austerities, I can claim my likeness
to the number three. Attachment to sense pleasures yields many hopping seeds,
sizable in their contusions. In the sudden pineal medicines, we can examine a fascinating
secretion in the memory of her belly. Even talk on the street lent my kept peacock magical prowess. As to the paramecium cannibalizing my skin, I am indebted
to it to learn this new mortification. Talk as you do, and I might invent your mouth. I stood on one leg in I circumambulated your ears, speaking a noun dead name. Honestly, I brought my trapped appeal to a sizeable demand
of beauty. I just was uncertain whether I could sell the catwalk
on my complete disappearance. Who would watch me when I sleep, and what would they see? I had cemented myself to my body for incarnations, believing
its touch of pain.
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